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[31 Dec 2003|12:14am] |
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i don't think i'm gonna post here anymore...it sux....thas my new one...latat ya'll!!
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[26 Dec 2003|10:10pm] |
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and i thought this christmas was gonna be shitty....: )
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| shit shit shit shit shit shit.........shit..shit.........i don't know.......i got nothin........ |
[24 Dec 2003|12:27pm] |
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i'm just sittin here at debo's house watchin his lil brother play n64.....it's pretty boring....but oh well.....i was hella drunk last night....that was like whoa....drunk drunk drunk.....i had hella fun though.....then me and debo cam and stayed at his place and woke up at like 9....so now i'm tring to figure out what i'm doin today....josh is tryin to get me to come over and i don't know if i wanna go all the way out there cuz it's a fuckin strike and a half....well i'm off now....gonna go be bored.....WAKE UP YOUR BABY!!!!!!!!! josh won't wake up his baby....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i don't know.....
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| WHY THE FUCK ARE PEOPLE SO FUCKIN STUPID???!!!???!!! |
[23 Dec 2003|05:14pm] |
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thank you to my girls who i love very much, you kow what it's like to be fucked with by dumb fuckin people....merry christmas to everyone!!! fuck christams....it's stupid....but i have a new lj....it's xthe_little_1x so ask and i'll add you....it's gonna be friends only cuz i don't want dumb people reading my shit anymore....well that's it. i'm off to go xmas shoppin....later ya'll -allie
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[22 Dec 2003|11:53pm] |
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i feel numb.....
i don't feel like i'm actually here.....
every 2 minutes the room starts spinning.....
i'm so done with this bullshit....
I'M FUCKING DONE!
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| rain drops keep fallin on my head...... |
[19 Dec 2003|05:58pm] |
drank yesterday. my mom made me have a panic attack last night. i'm at debo's house right now....it's raining and i'm in a skirt and we have to walk everywhere....i enrolled at city today. now we're gonna go and try and kick it with people. i was sad last night. i'm not as sad today. but what's wrong with me? i know there's something wrong with me but i can't put my finger on it....well i'm out ya'll.
-Allie
Sadist
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| so now your boobs are furry?!?! |
[17 Dec 2003|11:33pm] |
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so last night i babysat with stu. it was fun, we made the girls dinner and stu took the responsibilty of makin our dinner....he really needs to learn kitchen skills. but the dumplings turned out okay except for the tummy ache we both got...i dunno....so after that we went to see hamanda and josh cuz they were waiting to get into lord of the rings and playing the friends board game(fags)...so once it was time for them to go in (me and stu were off setting off macys alarms and getting lost in creepy bathrooms), we left and went to walmart so i could get some new lingerie...nothin special...then we drove around for a lil bit and i had to go to sleep cuz i had court this morning, so he dropped me off at my mom's(sorry you couldn't come up...next time you won't have to be cold)...and then he left...court this morning was just a stupid as the last time...postponed til after christmas....goin to the movies tomorrow....got my hair cut...kicked it with josh tonight...got cookies.....i really am sick of this fuckin shit thats happenin right now...i want a fuckin job, i want to fuckin start school, and i want enough money so me and stu can get a place soon....i might not have a home....AGAIN!!....LAME.....well i guess thats it....i'm so tired of everything....fuck it all.....-allie
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| wooden pickles, talking walnuts, long eared donkeys, and megan's sexy ass.... |
[16 Dec 2003|12:54pm] |
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nothin interesting really....went to a party on friday with the usual gang(hamanda, stu, cupcake) and tim weaver went with us. my friend jenn and her boy jordan joined us there.it was a pretty okay party. we spen part of the night dancing and the i went on my usual mission to find the drugs...me and amanda got money and i got a free pill. josh and stu got one pill. and amanda got a pill for 8 bucks and two bracelets. so then stu was left out...so i, being his bitch, went on a fierce mission to find him one before we left the party so we could all be fucked up together...but i couldn't do it for the first time ever...it was weird....anyways, josh ended up not being able to come home with us due to his baby so it was down to me, hamanda, stu, and tim....and josh being the sweet guy he can be very rarely gave his to stu....so we went back to amandas cave and got really fucked up and made name tags for everyone and me and amanda made pictures...it was the usual fun...(amanda being goofy, tim being all fucked up, me clinging to stu, and then the random other kids that were there)...jenn and jordan eventually came over and kept us company...it was a really fun night...then sleep...after muscle relaxers and codeine cough syrup....then debo came over and then he left. then tim came over with cigarettes, pizza, and red bull and then he left. then stu locked his keys in the car and we had a small adventure and ended up bringing THE MOTHER LODE back to amanda's...(stu and amanda know what i mean)....it was fun and then sunday i went downtown with the lil one and we had fun. and i realized that sunday was the first time i saw daylight since friday...so we went to see a movie and then we went our separate ways...then yesterday i kicked it with amanda and we made a trip to the heights so cupcake could come kick it...and stu of course...amanda thinks in a past life her dad owned a plantation....don't ask.....and then we ate dinner at her house and me and stu went to the movies with megan, spike, paul, and barbie, but the other ones left in the movie...so we saw bad santa and it was really funny....the giggles were nonstop...along with the stu sandwich and stu sitting in the nasty chair...haha....then we went home and we're goin to babysit tonight and then i dunno....we have to go look for jobs....i wanna hang out with megan...i want a monkey...AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! later...
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[11 Dec 2003|10:46pm] |
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so not too much has happened lately but i guess right now i have nothing better to do but type stuff so.....tuesday night i was supposed to go with spike and megan to concord but my mom said no so i scratched that idea and went to amandas thinkin maybe i'd have fun with her....big mistake.....we were havin fun until we started talkin serious talk and i started to freak out again cuz i was getting all worried and she decided to talk to josh on the phone while i "calmed myself down"....so while she did that i called stu just to see if maybe he'd wanna come see me later cuz i really wanted to see him n' stuff cuz he calms me down. so it goes from 8:30 to 11:30 and he still hasn't called so i decide to go to sleep...well i'm about to fall asleep when sure enough him and josh come in the room...now usually i'd be happy that he actually showed up but not that night...him and josh had just gotten done watching T3 so the stupidity was off the charts... and not to mention them makin fun of anything me or amanda said. so i knew that i wasn't gonna get to relax at all...so they made us watch a movie and then after the movie, they were gonna stay, which wasn't cool cuz amanda and me were supposed to be spending time together and all she could do was get mad at josh because he decided not to stay cuz he wanted to let us have our fun...and it sucks cuz it mattered more to him than it did to amanda...so they left and i passed out all pissed off. then the next day josh came over and amanda started being a dick to me as she usually starts when fuckin cupcake is around...so never again....then last night i kicked it with gary and debo and me and d got drunk then went to megans. then fom there we got another 40 of steel then 2 32's of corona....we were shitty drunk...it was fun cuz i haven't kicked it like that with debo in a while...so after getting shitty we walked from megans all the way to fruitridge and freeport and stayed at debo's house...then today we watched bad boys 2 and went downtown and met up with lil melissa and gary. we went and saw the haunted mansion which was actually a really awesome movie, i was surprised...so yeah that's all that's really happened....i'm chillin at kara's right now (she finally let me use the computer)....and tomorrow i'm getting up early and goin job hunting...then tomorrow night i might go to a party...should be fun...so much on my mind and i don't know what to do about it. if you have any advice on how i can stop all this nonsense, feel free to post....megan i'll give you your sweater if i see you tomorrow...we should kick it for a lil bit baby....well i'm out like baggy pants...- allie
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[09 Dec 2003|04:28pm] |
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so i'm at the library cuz i had nothing else to do and i cant use the computer at kara's cuz they're computer nazis and i'm trying to find a job at this website thingy.....i got to go to target today with my mom and get a hoodie. woohoo. yesterday i...wait, i don't remember the first half of yesterday....oh well fuck it...last night i went with kara and her yuppie friends to dinner at hard rock and ended up eating what she didn't want cuz i couldn't afford anything on the menu....lame....so then we went to her yuppie friends house and sat around watching a porno that was starring this girl we both knew since like 6th grade....that wasn't too bad except for the fact that no one over there likes me....i really hate when she makes me hang out with her friends...then when we got home, stu came over to bring me my mom's keys(long story)and we chilled for a grand total of like 7 minutes...he was tired er something....so today i overslept and didn't get out of the house until like 2...so now i'm here and i'm bored.....and my phones almost dead....i don't wanna stay at kara's anymore. her mom doesn't like me as much as she used to. like yesterday for example, she said that the way i am now is ridiculous (i.e. the way i dress and my hair and my friends)...basically she wishes that i was still the same kid i was in the 6th grade, the quiet little mexican girl who never said more than 2 words and went along with anything kara said or did....and i understand that if i wanna get a job i might have to change the way i am a little bit but not completely....people just piss me off....wow, now that i haven't been thinkin about it i don't have to pee as much anymore....yay!!!well i guess that's it for now....later
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[07 Dec 2003|07:50pm] |
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first me, spike, megan, and gary went and ate at jimboys and then we went to the movie theater in the plaza and couldnt decide on a movie so we went and picked up paul and barbie...that made things so much more fun...we went to chuck-e-cheese and me, megan, spike, and gary went in and played little kid games and had hella fun. then we came back to megan's house and switched cars and went to the OT so spike could see his freind and me, megan, and gary sat in the car while spike went inside and paul and barbie went off to drink...i started feeling really weird for some reason....anyways...once spike was ready to leave we went back to megans house....that's when it hit me...i had a really weird panic attack-type thingy...so megan medicated me and we went to blockbuster and when we got back megan took me inside the house and took really good care of me and made me feel better...so then the other two left and spike and gary came inside and we watched pulp fiction but i passed out hella early...the today i slept in and gary came over and walked with me to my mom's to get some cash....then we went back to megans and then we all (lil melissa, megan, me, spike, and gary) went to find some food and ended up at trader joes where they got food....now we're back at megans doin nothing....well i'm doing nothing....but yeah....i'm really worried about that thingy i had yesterday cuz i've had them for a while now but that one was really weird and kinda scary and i don't want it to happen ever again......blah....i think there has just been too much bullshit goin on lately and i don't know if i'm gonna be able to handle it much longer...........anyways..........that's it.........later ya'll...-allie
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| am i intimidating?.....am i losing my mind?.....what's happening to me?...... |
[07 Dec 2003|02:31am] |
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i'm not gonna say much. i went through a lot of bullshit today/tonight. i had one of my really serious panic attacks...i freaked out...i don't wanna go into detail. megan is the best friend i've ever had. i'm so lucky to have her as my friend. i love you dude...i'll talk more tomorrow.....................signed, me
*and on a different note, barbara, you said you would talk to me the next time you saw me in person. well you saw me tonight and i don't know why you couldn't have been a big girl and followed through on it. so i hope you are still gonna be able to do that because this isn't resolved yet......~allie
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| how fucked up can someone be?!?! |
[06 Dec 2003|06:36pm] |
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today has been shitty...i haven't eaten since yesterday and i all i had was some microwavable pasta...i haven't showered since like thursday....i'm in a shitty mood...so i went to oakland with spike, megan, melissa, and doyle...it was hella fun...saw little josh, brian, nevyn, and america(dirty ass tweeker)....the show was awesome and the venue was fuckin rad...it was the most fun i've had in a long time...especially makin fun of all the dumb bitches with megan, i love ya megs...so on the way home i passed out and woke up with a migraine and a throbbing back...not to mention my scabbing lip and sore nose.....i ended up staying at my mom's house and wakin up to a really shitty day....i got disowned by dad and huge fight with my mom and just walked out and wandered around in the rain until i came to megans house....i dont know what we're doing and i'm talkin on the phone to my friend jess so later....-allie
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| WHARF!!!! SPINKLE DINKLE FINKELSTEIN!!!! |
[05 Dec 2003|02:56am] |
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HELLO. I'M ALL FUCKED UP RIGHT NOW. WOOHOO!!! i'm chillin with spike, megan, and stu...but me and stu are rollin and spike is kinda high...we went to walmart and then to eppies. it's been hella fun...um....so yeah....i guess me and stu are sleepin in the car tonight. fun stuff!! later ya'llz!! -allie
STU ROCKS MY SOCKS!!!!
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| get your little glovie...-kara's dad.... |
[04 Dec 2003|09:00pm] |
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i feel all happy. we picked up kara's brother from the airport and i haven't seen him in like a year (he's been in the air force) and it brought back hella old memories...ah, those were the good old days...anyways...i went to that job counselor today. she was really nice and helped me look for tons of different jobs, any of which i hope to get...then i came home and cleaned and hung out with stu for a little bit...then we ate pizza and kara and her brother and his friends just left to go watch wrestling and i decided to stay here...even though i'm terribly bored now....hmmm...so yeah...i wanna go hang out with spike and megan tonight so hopefully that will happen...i'm trying to get more money so we can go to L.A. on saturday...i really wanna go....me and stu were gonna try and get some fungus or pills tonight but i'm not too sure if we're gonna have any luck...oh well, drugs are bad anyways....i guess that's it for right now...peace out -allie
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| did you say steak?.....FUCK OFF!!.....i mean....i love you.....(earlier today...) |
[03 Dec 2003|08:33pm] |
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blah. blah. blah...babysat last night...boring...went to court this morning...got recommended informal probation...the legal system can kiss my ass...sat around...boring...ate dinner...gotta go to a job counselor tomorrow...boring...can't wait to go to L.A....don't wanna be here anymore...hung out with paul yesterday...it was weird...i'm bored with everything...i have a strong sense of, oh what's the phrase?..........SAME SHIT. DIFFERENT DAY!!!..........fuck all this crap.....BLAH!!! why does life have to suck so much?....im gonna go get ice cream...later kids...-allie
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| wow....tonight sucked...but these elimidate bitches are pretty fuckin fierce... |
[02 Dec 2003|01:31am] |
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well i didn't wake up until like 2:30 today....i got up and stu came and got me and we went to my moms work where megan and spike picked me up...we went to eat and then went to meet up with doyle, melissa, paul, and barbie....woohoo....party.....no, then we (megan and i) sat in the car for a while...yay...then we went and got beer and sat in an alley for a while, barbie left, and then we left. we went to the old tavern and saw my mom and got some food...then we took doyle home and that's when shit went down...i'm not gonna talk about it cuz it's not my business to say, but i was hella worried and still am....anyways...i'm really stressin about something but i don't wanna talk about it...i'm home now and tomorrow i wanna see stu, megan & spike, and then go babysit...makin' mo' money!! yeah baby, got that scrilla, WOOP WOOP!! anyways, enough being ghetto...i'm glad i might get to go to L.A. with the other kids....at least i hope we're still goin...we should be but i dunno...i'll find out tomorrow....well that's it for now...later kids -allie
and there's some shit that needs to be talked about and be discussed with a mature attitude so when you little girls are ready you have my number...
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| im bored......aaaahhhhhhhhhh.............. |
[01 Dec 2003|12:54am] |
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sorry....i was bored....
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| "jack is alive with the sound of music..." -kara (jack is her dog and she was singing about him...) |
[30 Nov 2003|11:18pm] |
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today was cool...slept in, applied for sac city, ate really good food, and now i'm watching home movies of kara and me from back in the day.....although the low point of my day was when i was forced to watch a good charlotte thing on mtv....aaahh!!!i'm so excited...her brother is gonna be home this week from the air force....i havent seen him in like a year...i hella miss him...anyways, well i don't feel like writing anymore tonight....later ya'll....-allie
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| ATTENTION: YOU'RE STUPID!!!!! |
[30 Nov 2003|05:44pm] |
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ok this goes out to everyone who has a problem with me right now....YOU'RE FUCKIN STUPID!!!! i don't know why you have a problem with me and i don't give a shit. if you have something to say, say it to my face not behind my back. and don't act like you know me because i highly doubt that you know anything about me. the only people i care about are my real friends, so the rest of you can go to hell. so whenever you're all gonna be grown up about all this shit, i'll be here...but until then stay out of my business and quit talkin shit.
ANYWAYS!! i'm a little out of it right now, due to the nervous breakdown the other night, the drive to frisco last night, and stupid shit today...went to international imports yesterday with lil melissa, visited with stu and nick, and got 2 new patches. then we went to rosemont to see summer (i finally met her!!) then we went and got pizza with gary, amber, melissa, and spike n' megan...then went to frisco with kara...didn't do shit today....gonna go eat dinner cuz i'm hungry.....BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!! -allie
P.S. lil melissa and megan need to call me!!! so hurry up and do it!!!
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